Letters to Violet - 6 months
January 01, 2018
Today is a New Year.
2018.
Today you are 9 days away from being 7 months old.
Today I failed you as a mother.
We
spent New Years weekend in Rocky Point, Mexico, with your Grandma
Christine and Papa. It was a fun, eventfully and a very exhausting weekend.
Before we left for Mexico, you got you 6 months shots. You also got a
slight fever from those shots. A sick baby traveling is not fun for
anyone, but being the trooper you are, you smiled the whole way through.
You didn’t sleep much on this trip. You wanted to be nursed and comforted every hour on the hour. With your lack
of sleep plus mommy and daddy‘s lack of sleep ... we were a tired bunch
and we couldn’t wait to get home.
Finally home, Mommy rushed to get
things unpack and washed to have a fresh start to the week. Since you
didn’t sleep much over the weekend you were a fussy tired baby. My first
mistake was not stopping what I was doing to comfort your fussiness. I
was in and out of the room putting things away.
One second.
They say.
All it takes is one second. That loud thud had me running. Your screams
torn me in two. And seeing you on the ground broke my heart. All I could do was hold you
and rock you, praying to god you were okay. Your daddy went to get your
doggies, so he doesn’t know about your fall. My fail. Mommy is a little scared to
tell him.
My lesson was definitely learned! You wont remember this when your older, but I will for the rest of my life.
Mommy loves you V.
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